I've always felt restricted among the muslim society and my family. I stopped praying years ago. I began to realize my lack of religious belief because I didn't feel any remorse or fear of "Allah" for not being a good muslim. And when my parents or sunday school teachers would tell me of stories and miracles of the qoran or muhammad's life, I saw them only as childish exaggerations that didn't make sense or align with human nature. Even passages from the qoran sounded like something out of a children's book. I felt handcuffed and gagged. The times I did speak up and express my opinions to my parents, they completely freaked and then dismissed my curiosity as being of a "foolish uneducated child," I was not born to submit my free will to god or any religion. I have freed myself emotionally from the bondage of religion. I count the days till I am also free physically.